I’m not sleeping well.
One reason for my unrest is that I’m constantly getting verbally beaten up at work due to this project I’m on and I’m ready to toss in the towel. I can handle criticism when I’m in control of the entire process, but when I am getting told that my app is shit because the subsystems on which it relies are not correct yet, then I get angry. I’m not saying that my app is perfect, far from it fact, but I catch all the shit when anything fails because the users are only using the app to interact with the rest of the systems.
Upon returning home from another German class for which I was unprepared I only watched a little of last night’s World Series Game 1. The frustration I was experiencing was heightened by the troubles Fox was having broadcasting the game. I awoke to see that my Mets unfortunately gave up a homer in the bottom of the ninth allowing the Royals to tie the score, and then went on to lose in the fourteenth inning. I’m glad that I didn’t attempt to stay up and watch the game.
It’s ironic that I’m so down that this weather is unable to sadden me any more than I already am. Take that Mother Nature.
Lack Of Cheers,