I used to work with a guy who suffered from constantly-dry scalp. As I saw him scratch his head often I thought how lousy that would be, and now Life is letting me experience it. For some reason my scalp has been really dry for awhile, and if I scratch my head I get an explosion of skin particles emitted from my scalp; sorry if you are eating while reading today’s post. (and I wonder why I don’t have confidence to talk to women…) I’ve tried many different shampoos, to no avail. I don’t know if the problem is caused by my diet, but it’s not like I’ve done anything extreme that would encourage such a change. Maybe it’s just that the human body wasn’t designed to last fifty-two years, or maybe it’s just that my human body wasn’t. Who the F knows… I suppose that I could add a dermatologist to my growing list of medical professionals necessary to keep me alive.
Fooda = Food Meh?
In an effort to draw people back to Colony Square for lunch they have partnered with Fooda to host pop-up restaurants. Each day this week there will be a different restaurant represented, yesterday was PF Chang’s.
I will go on record stating an opinion, that is probably less controversial than calling Trump an idiot, that I think PF Chang’s is over-priced mediocre Chinese food. So why did I pay $11.50 for the same dish that would cost $8 at the now-vacated Tin Drum? Because if I had been wrong, I could not have boasted that I was at the very first Fooda pop up. Oh, and Chinese good sounded tasty, and it’s hard to find Chinese within walking distance from “XYZ Corp”.
There was a second reason I popped into Colony Square yesterday, it was to renew my membership with Goethe Atlanta. I had to do this in person because I could not find a way to do so using their new website. Apparently there is a way, I just couldn’t figure it out. Because their credit card reader was not functioning, I had to log into PayPal on their computer to pay. Having just been the victim of credit card fraud this made me very nervous, so I ensured that I was logged out of PayPal before leaving their office.
Waschsalon = Falschsalon
I’ve now learned that I cannot trust Midtown Wash to be an early-morning laundry solution. Once again I waited fifteen minutes beyond the posted opening time for the attendant to arrive, before leaving in disgust. I understand that 7:00am is early and that many people do not want to get out of bed, myself included, but if you post that as your opening time then you should be open. If you cannot successfully meet your opening time then you should post new hours that you can meet. I think that this is a reasonable expectation.
Hope that you have better luck meeting your expectations today.
There is Chinese at 10th and Spring. Some from the office go, but I have never been.
I stopped and visited my car in the hospital and spoke to the management. Apparently, they are still unsure about replacing the computer, as the trans has no test port. They have called the national office for support and I’m to hear back today.
Debbie arrived home from riding as I got home- she in the company of 2 neighbor dogs, Lillie, who is a regular house guest, and Happy, who she picks up while riding. Our dogs were not pleased at Happy’s presence and I had to drag a large barking Great Dane away from him.
We then proceeded back to the trails for a little maintenance- Debbie on the tractor with the bush hog and I on foot with a hand tool or two. I’m sore today, but I got a good workout in swinging various weapons against undergrowth. She kept going for a bit while I packed it in and I asked her to be home before it got really dark. She got lost but did manage to find her way.
10th and Spring? I am trying to picture it. I’ll use Google Street View once I am done with this comment.
I hope that you can get your car back soon.
Between Spring and Williams, across from the hotel. I’ll make inquiries…
“I wonder why I donâ€™t have confidence to talk to women”
If you don’t find yourself attractive, why should anyone else? It all starts with you. You can either exude confidence with being good in your skin, or exude woe is me.
Yes, you have shit raining down. We all do. Some of us way more than others. That’s the breaks. This socially anxious trauma survivor got called up for jury duty yesterday for at least the 12th time yesterday. For the first time ever I dealt with it in a zen fashion instead of feeling like a trapped wild animal. Who knew THAT was possible.? It is possible to be good in one’s skin despite shit raining down. Again, who knew?
Here’s the thing, either you own your shit, or it owns you. My outside observation is your shit is totally owning you. As has mine, but I’m shaking that shit off. Because I can. And so can you.
My favorite line from any movie is when Morgan Freeman says “Get busy livin’, or get busy dyin’.” That’s truly what it all comes down to.
Lack of confidence is a vicious cycle. (Or is it a vicious circle?) From an early age I was never the boy that girls wanted, which led me to believe that I was undesirable, which meant that as a young man I had a difficult time talking to women, which has placed me here.
My shit totally owns me. For the first fifty years of my life the shit was nearly all mental, and now a lot of phyiscal shit has also entered the picture. “Getting old ain’t for pussies” is the adage I have heard.
As a white male born in the United States and who was (just) smart enough to work hard and lucky enough enter a field that pays a decent wage because of its infancy, I have had many breaks. However, the grass is always greener on the other side.
Go see Ellen Marmon. Her office is in Buckhead, behind Brio. Her undergrad degree is in Industrial Engineering. She’ll get you. Go once. There’s no commitment. You’ll know in the first visit if she can help you or not. I sure did.
I’d still be absolutely stuck (as you presently are) if not for her. I was so convinced I was in control and could figure shit out on my own. NOT. HARDLY.
Separately, comparing your situation/self to others is a sure-fire way to feed the demons in your head. The demons love it, and can’t get enough, and so you rinse and repeat over and over. You can escape II’m living proof), but you’re gonna need a guide to get you there. I’m no no means recovered completely, but I’m sure as fuck better in my skin than I have *EVER* been.
I was bitching one day to Ellen about it taking me so far into my life to figure she out. Her response was “Better age 50 than 70”. Shut me right up. Make your choice, Paulie. You can get out of the cycle if you want to.
73 de JG/HamWithCam
He won’t listen to someone he knows (you). 🙂
I have nothing to lose here. And reading this blog so often has felt like looking in a mirror. Once you know there’s a way out, you don’t want anyone else to stay stuck either.
Life is funny, sometimes we have to hear stuff from random places or random strangers for it to stick.
It’s your blog, Paulie, so you can bitch on and on about your life if you want to, but there’s a clearly marked escape route ahead of you. You’re not alone in ANY of your shit. Constantly inventorying one’s deficits sucks all of the air out of the room and prevents us from seeing all of the good stuff about us.
Speaking of vicious cycles, mental outlook has a huge bearing on physical well-being. Beating yourself down mentally? The body says, OK, I guess that’s what we’re doing here and joins right in.
Whenever I’d resist one of Ellen’s recommendations, thinking I knew better, she’d ask “Well, how’s that working out for you?” So, Paulie, the question for you, waiting on something, anything to magically change about your life, how’s that working out for you?
Good stuff Lurker. Good on you for doing the work to change your energy/ outlook. A good therapist who gets you is golden. It took me several tries to find one that i clicked with and could help me move forward. Well worth it.
I’ve had that happen to me at that Wash Salon only twice in the past 6 years, and it was only for about 5 minutes (and that I can handle). 15 minutes would piss me off. I’ve also had that happen to me twice at the L.A. Fitness on Spring (when I used to belong). It’s the friggin’ pits to have to wait for something to open past time. You’d think employees should be required to be there 30 minutes prior to opening or something.
There is another Wash Salon close by you could try at Ansley Mall. I don’t find it as nice (and it doesn’t take credit cards) but the folks there are nice, they have the free wifi, and you’d have the advantage of hitting up places like Panera, Bantam & Biddy or even just Starbucks for breakfast while you wait.
Oh, speaking of which? Don’t try to go to that Publix on 10th and Spring/W.Peachtree at 6:30 anymore. They changed their hours to 7am now. (One guess how I found that out.)
As for your scalp – if it’s only recent, is there any chance you’ve been out in the sun a lot lately without head protection? (or have a sunroof in your car/same thing) Maybe you’re getting sunburned and not realizing it?
I have been to the Ansley laundromat a couple of times, I prefer Midtown. This is twice in three months for me; I’ll just adjust my expectations of when they will be open.
Aw, that sucks about Publix especially since we just found out that it opened at 6:30!
It’s definitely not sunburn. There is no pain, it is over the entirety of my scalp, and I have not been out in the sun enough to have gotten a burn. The M6 has no sunroof, so it’s also not that.
Speaking of the M6, I meant to blog about hitting 40k miles on my drive in this morning. Wow, 40k already? Also, I received a recall notice in the mail yesterday, something to do with the parking/emergency brake. I have been instructed to wait until I am told that the part is available before scheduling the service. Shouldn’t the fix be available before sending the notice?
I think the notice is factory mandated as soon as it’s realized. I’m guessing the part just may not be available at your dealer yet but is in other parts of the country?
Hey, since you know the Publix I mean, you now know where the Chinese that Steve mentions is too. 🙂
And speaking of Midtown and lunching… are you gentlemen working on Tuesday? I’m taking it off just because I want a 4 day weekend. Ha! Not doing anything though, just hanging around town. Wondering if y’all will be available for lunch?
I looked at it on Google, know of it but have no experience eating there.
I will be working Tuesday and available for lunch if you’d like to meet up.
Fabulous! We can decide then what we might want and obviously I can walk your way. I hear Tuesdays are good for Tacos. 🙂
I’m working Tuesday and I’d be interested. I might even try the Chinese place!
Yay Steve! I’m not opposed to the Chinese either. I love me some Chinese.
go to a dermatologist to get some “good” shampoo. I have had a dry scalp problem at times (I seriously think it is from stress) and the prescription stuff works really well.
Not much going on – trying to figure out what to do this weekend. Nothing we have to do, but plenty we can do. A band that the Parrotheads like playing in Kennesaw Friday night. A party in Roswell Saturday evening. Maybe Black Sheep on Sunday. I think we may go tubing Monday on the Cartacay.