Though last night’s rain may have altered today’s master work plan, it is a busy morning already.
On Friday I hung out at Betsy’s, celebrating her birthday. It was a good night which found Bonnie and me to be the last two standing around the fire, awaiting its extinguishing.
Priory to heading to Betsy’s I discovered that my bar refrigerator had frozen over, and that one of the cans of NA beer in it had exploded. Needless to say I hat to defrost it over the weekend and clean it out.
Saturday morning I walked with Betsy and Bella, and then headed home for a much-needed nap. On Saturday night I attended my first dinner party since the start of COVID. It was a decent time.
Yesterday was a Black Sheep day. Trail was fine. I expected to be productive last night but fell asleep on my futon, and then suffered a series of incredibly painful cramps in my legs. ðŸ¤·ðŸ»â€â™‚ï¸
This morning finds me at the laundromat on Moreland, taking care of the many dirty clothes that I have accumulated.
I intended to collect leaves today, crumbling them, and putting them into the leaf bin I acquired from a neighbor’s trash l, but the leaves are now all wet and won’t crumble. Dangen!
Oh well, I am sure that I find outer ways to occupy my time.
Hope that you had a healthy and happy weekend.
It looks cold, damp and windy outside. Poop. Maybe the day will improve and I can get a little exercise, if even just a walk. Will probably just do chores today, then cook a celebratory dinner for the husband who passed his annual â€œtestsâ€ to ensure he still knows how to fly a plane. ðŸ˜ He will be gone Tuesday-Sunday (with a stop home on Thanksgiving) so I need to find some fun stuff to get up to this weekâ€¦
Supposed to get sunnier, but not much warmer.
Chore #1 (laundry) done.
Chore #2 (Tractor Supply run) aborted, because I am not feeling up to it and donâ€™t want to spend the money today.
Chore #3 (sitting on my ass) in progress.
My day started with no coffee (!) and a nice lady sticking needles in my arm. My “annual” physical is complete. Also, except for the lab work, a big waste of time. The doctor came in, we chatted about life in general (back in the office yet?) and he put his stethoscope on me 4 times. No “turn your head and cough”, no “bend over and relax”, nothing. Getting a new PCP a lot closer to me next year.
Saturday, we went to Poplar Farm (South of Calloway) to watch Daisy compete in a show. She was scared and had a bit of “first jump jitters” but managed to get over most of the jumps without issue. Neighbor Nicole was there with her “former Olympian, bought in Ireland for $80k” horse and only did a little better. SCORE!
Since I was already in Decatur, I came into the office to clean up after migrating equipment Sunday, and getting ready for RTO next week. (Return to Office). Looks like, to start I’ll be in 2 days a week… blast!
Just as a frame of reference, I have a concierge doctor and she doesn’t do the bend over and relax thing every time either. I think it depends upon how the bloodwork looks. I don’t see a particular pattern yet, but she checked me last year but not this year. But yeah, if you’re unhappy with your doctor then do what you need to find someone you trust.
This guy replaced a “good ‘ol country doctor” who took time, did all the things, and seemed generally concerned. It’s a waste to drive all that way and not get a good experience. He doesn’t even ask questions.. “are you feeling well?”, “do you have any concerns about your health?”. I’m sure he’s good to his dog and loves his mother, but…
Oh, I see, checking the boxes and saying NEXT! Yep, time to move on. He’s not the right doctor for you.
You know what, I’m going to drop the Lurker moniker. Y’all can still refer to me as such, but I’m going to be present as myself going forward. The Lurker identity made sense for a long time, because I was hiding in so many parts of my life. I’m not hiding any more. Last week I came out as bisexual to my wife. Who knows what that means for my marriage. 1/3 of marriages end immediately. Another 1/3 end within 2 years. The odds aren’t great. We’re working with a couples therapist who is also a sex therapist. So we’ll see. What forced the issue is being asked one too many times “Are you gay?” For the record I’m not. I am very much attracted to women. I am also attracted to certain men as well. What I could never see before is soul-crushing repressing your own sexuality is. I also have things in my past that predispose me, but whatever, I am who I am. In short, I’m here, and I’m queer. I’m going to be good no matter which way this stuff plays out.
wow – well good for you to be true to yourself.
I like that we can call you David now, but Lurker has been your name for so long, it will be hard to change 🙂
I have said recently to a few people, you just need to be you.
I wish I could figure out who I am these days – especially work wise.
I am very fortunate that Allan is putting up with me thru all this.
Thank you, Barb. I’ve realized if we’re not true to ourselves we’re not true to anyone else.
I know that I’ll always be Lurker. That is just fine. That persona served me well, but it’s time to move forward and just be me.
If you’re feeling blocked I can’t recommend therapy enough. In my experience there’s unfinished business of some sort that is going to continue to get in your way until you get it settled.
David! *Wave*. Thank you for sharing and I look forward to getting to know you better. 🙂
Hi Bonnie! I’m working on being less of a feral cat. ðŸ˜¹ I am gonna have to retrain my fingers though, I almost typed ITP Lurker yet again.
David, we are more than happy to have you in any way we can. I hope this journey is freeing and not too painful.
Thank you Steve. My journey has been painful as fuck, but I’m getting to the freeing stages. I cannot and will not let up. I know you guys been able to see various shifts in me over the years even in this online space.
Welcome David. No need to reference you as Lurker since you are the only David here. Lol.
Good on you friend, and best wishes for everything.
Thank you, Paulie. Your fingers might still type out Lurker from time to time, and it’ll be all good. Thank you for keeping this space open. It’s been a resource to me all along in so many ways.
Nothing too exciting going on up here in Marietta.
Went to Pine Lake Saturday, fun walk around Mason Mill & Emory area.
Went to 57th Fighter Group for brunch yesterday – $29 or something like that for brunch buffet, I don’t need to spend that much or eat that much at one meal. It was fun though.
I have a job interview for a PT job at 1pm. I just am not in the right mindset right now for job hunting, trying to find something I “want” to do is hard, when I don’t know what I want to do. I just know I want to do something different.
Good luck! As you know, Iâ€™m in the same boat. Iâ€™m just taking longer to (maybe) figure it out. 😉
Hope it goes well Barb. I too am not keen to get back into a job, and the longer I wait to prepare to interview the longer it will take for me to be hired. ðŸ™„
Went outside to do some choring and promptly got stung on the back of the neck by a bee. Fucker! Now I wish I had remained uninspired.
Dude, your garden is treacherous! ðŸ˜²